Some of you are probably thinking. "O.K. So, she went over
there to teach, right? And I haven't read a thing about teaching." Yeah, I
know. It's just that there have been so many other exciting and new things
going on that I haven't paused long enough to write a post on teaching, but here
it comes.
I got so excited when I first looked at the curriculum I would be
using this year. It is almost exactly what I did in fifth grade! God is so
good. Whenever I teach Miguel something I have a major deja vu moment, and
it makes things so much easier (another nice thing is that Miguel and my little
sister have a lot of things in common, so I almost feel like I already know
him...well, almost anyway).
God is so good, and He has given me so much to equip and prepare
me for this job. So much of my life has made me feel at home here. My Latino
side totally meshes with the lifestyle of my new Portuguese family. Paulo even
reminds me of my dad. Ruth reminds me of a mix of my Tia Mabel and my prima,
Erika, and like I said earlier, Miguel often reminds me of Olivia.
All that said, I still get lonely, I’m still tired, and teaching
is still harder than I thought it would be. How do I convey information in a
way that is understandable to a ten year old? How do I inspire him to love
learning, to take initiative, to be proactive? How do I bring to him the reality
and friendship of Jesus? Sometimes it seems like too much, and worry and doubt
start to crowd my mind. Am I really doing any good?
Yet I know God has called me here, and I know that He equips those
whom He calls. I know that He can use me, and I have faith that He will do
things through me that I may never see or realize.
A good friend of mine sent me an email recently, and in it there
was this quote: “"The humblest and poorest of the disciples of Jesus can be a
blessing to others. They may not realize that they are doing any special good,
but by their unconscious influence they may start waves of blessing that will
widen and deepen, and the blessed results they may never know until the day of
final reward. They do not feel or know that they are doing anything great. They are not required to weary themselves
with anxiety about success. They have only to go forward quietly, doing
faithfully the work that God's providence assigns, and their life will not be
in vain" (from Steps to Christ).
May God help me go forward quietly, ever faithful to what He has
called me, even if I don’t see immediate results.
That was a perfect quote for your situation. We pray for you throughout the day. Remember anything worthwhile takes hard work. Stay faithful to your duty each day and claim Phil. 4:13.
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